I hadn't done so badly in maths ever.. and last
Friday.. I got my practice exam's score for specialist maths back.. and I did so badly.. even the teacher was so shocked.. and so did I.. I failed.. and not even a nice mark.. very very unpredictable score.. no one would want to know how bad did I go..
On Saturday when I called my mum.. everything was still alright.. and when my dad talked to me.. he was like
"if you want us to come to your speech day.. you really have to pray hard.." Something happened at home obviously.. My great grandma is very ill now..
*everyone out there.. "great grandma" doesn't sound like a close relative right?? but no.. I am really close with her*.. Once my dad told me about that.. My tears just flowed out from my watery eyes.. I haven't seen her for 3 months.. and I won't be back till November.. there is another month left.. I miss her.. I want to go home.. but I am not allowed to cuz dad said so.. She couldn't talk to me on the phone because she didn't have energy.. and her throat hurts when she talks..
On Sunday.. *withheld*(no number) appeared on my phone screen.. I wished that it wasn't my mum.. cuz I didn't wan to know any bad news.. and yea.. It was my mum.. and she asked me whether I was free or not.. of course I would say yes.. She asked me to talk to my great grandma.. I did.. I was like
"ah zhor.. ah zhor.. can you hear me?? you have to stay healthy.. I am coming back in a month time.." but there wasn't any response from her.. tears flowed again.. my heart was cramped.. I asked my dad again whether she was still very ill or not? and he said no no.. she was getting better now.. I knew he didn't want me to be worried.. then he passed it to my aunt.. she was crying when she talk to me on the phone.. how could I not be worried?? I really want to get a ticket and fly back striaght away!!!
I couldn't sleep on Sunday night.. I called Ah Qi.. she knew how I felt.. I hardly cry on the phone when I talk to Ah Qi.. I think I never cried on the phone when I talk to Ah Qi.. and that night I did.. thanks for the comfort you gave me.. much appreciated.. then I still couldn't sleep.. I called my dad.. he told me that my great grandma was a bit better after she heard my voice.. I miss her.. I want to go home!!!
30 days here is too long for me now!!!