depressed.. T_T

i had the worse conversation with a best friend of mine just then.. i just couldn't continue to do my work after i talked to her.. i am sad.. i am depressed.. and i lost a best friend.. T_T..
ya.. as she said.. things are always changing.. and ya.. that's the fact..
i just couldn't believe that i have just lost a best friend.. i want to talk to someone.. but i just can't find someone i can talk to.. blog is the only place i can say whatever i want to..

form 3.. we were in the same class.. form 4.. although we were not in the same class.. but we were still very close.. she knew everything bout me and so was i.. then in sept.. i left.. i went to overseas to continue my studies.. but we were still close.. emailing each other every day almost..
and now.. things changed.. i just couldn't believe it.. a best friend that i have had since form 3 is now gone.. gone.. gone.. she is now a very normal friend of mine or maybe just hi bye friend.. or maybe nothing.. why does thing turn up like that?

i thought we would stay in the same apartment when we are in uni.. but now.. impossible.. how come?? no one can answer my question.. maybe.. i am just not that kind of friend she wants.. but.. i still care.. i really do.. i really do.. tears are pouring for losing a friend.. tears are pouring when i think bout the past.. tears are pouring when i want to talk to her.. cuz i know now.. i can't.. she is no longer my best friend..